Word of the Day: 黄金雀

I am of mixed minds right now. I had this one guy I thought was cute and sweet. I was all confused because he was ghosting me and shit. He made me all sentimental and I was like a little lamb, but now there is this.......... really super hot guy talking to me. But he isn't just hot, we actually vibe a lot more too? I mean, I haven't met him in person so it might be just a text thing. Like, even though I am very excited, I calm myself down always and try not to lose myself in the delulu.

I know I am projecting a lot, and also I mean even though my hormones got me going so hard that like I almost confused it with remote viewing for a second. I know it is just an infatuation, I am not stupid. But also, I had a lot of bad luck recently so I am actually sort of happy even if it is kind of superficial. Like it was flowing too fast, if that makes sense?

Like I still have one foot on the ground but, the other foot is like 10,000 miles up in the sky right now.

Tried to channel some of that energy into my TODOs. I didn't really get a lot done but the night is young. I figured I should prepare at least a little bit for my appointments this week. I did prepare the paperwork for them but.. I have a lot more still on my plate.

Also I haven't had weed or anything so, this is not me being in any spiritual mode or being intoxicated.. I was actually tempted to buy some today, but I decided not to and this happened so... yea. There is a god.

I feel I need a break from political/spiritual/hacker bleh right now. I want to enjoy being a human for a bit.

Also a lot of readers have been saying that, " You need to focus on what you want to do, don't let people dictate your actions too much or stifle you. "

I like to think I am sort of beyond influence since I have a very naturally independent nature, but that is not true. I am influenced sometimes. Also, the hyper independence is most likely a result of someone influencing me negatively. Probably more than usual with the harassment I have been getting but, yea. I need to just enjoy this return of balance right now and see how long I can have it last for myself without sabotaging it.

It is a holiday right now:

Festival of Colours, Love and Spring. It celebrates the eternal and divine love of the deities Radha and Krishna. Additionally, the day signifies the triumph of good over evil, as it commemorates the victory of Vishnu as Narasimha over Hiranyakashipu.

I am kind of feeling it, to be honest. It is marked in my Scheduler by the print makers too. Along with Ramadan. Then it is Ash Wednesday tomorrow.

Ash Wednesday is a holy day of prayer and fasting in many Western Christian denominations. It is preceded by Shrove Tuesday and marks the first day of Lent: the seven weeks of prayer, fasting and almsgiving before the arrival of Easter.

Ah, I didn't know this. I just sort of did it naturally. Hmm.. well, I guess it just shows if you have god in your heart, your actions are naturally good, huh?

Well, we have a hivemind thanks to Ai, so I probably got the brainwaves to participate. But I wasn't conscious of it.