El-Roi

I think I do owe you an apology

I didn't see because I didn't wish to see

I focused on images that were groggy

Allowed laziness to lay a mat for me

I am s0rry I never acknowledged enough how you clothed me with grace

How you protected me even when I was oblivious to it

Denied me things I wanted to protect who you wanted me to become

How you have been with me at every moment of this race

I am s0rry for turning a blind eye to the signs

Doing things my own way ? I dined with pride

Seeking you as a last option? I flirted with fear

Sometimes I am ovewhelmed and it gets too much to bear

There are ways in which you love me that I stil don't understand

Maybe because I feel unworthy to be on this ground on which I stand

Unworthy of this air which i breathe

Waking up wondering what you see in me

I am grateful for everything you sent my way

I really mean it when I write it

Every stress, every emotion, every hurt, and every joy

Every success and every failure, every tear since I was but a boy

Every friend that has come and gone and those who remain

Every love I tried to pursue and inevitably failed

Every time I felt weak to stand back up on my two feet

In the darkness, you were the light that led me through

Thank you for taking the wheels off my hands

Thanks for soothing the pains buried in my chest

I am seeing the value of the various tests

Love, the boy to whom you gave a second chance