disorder
The spectrum of Mental Health disorders is incredibly vast; we showcase the multitude of conditions that affect mood, thinking and behavior.
Girl behind the wheel:
I finally figured out the hidden identity of the "Girl behind the wheel", the one who has steared me around like a teenager taking their driving test and has been nothing short of a nervous f*cking wreck around the deep twists and turns of life.
By Jaded Savior Blog4 years ago in Psyche
What is psychosis
I was 17 when I had my first break with reality, I was likely having my first psychosis episode linked to having bipolar disorder. I had not yet been diagnosed with the disorder, that would happen in my early 20s. For 6 days I did not sleep I was so full of anxiety fear and paranoia I literally could not get my eyes to close. Mental pain is very disturbing, I would rather be in physical pain then be disturbed in this way. Soon I could not distinguish from reality. I was living out illusions in my subconscious reality, or what I believe to be dream state. I couldn't even open my eyes to see the world around me. Can you imagine how scary that was, I knew I was stuck somewhere in my mind and was no longer functioning in the real world. I was in a dream world, being created by my subconscious. I tried to "awaken" myself several times. But I was trapped. Let me describe this way. Have you ever had a nightmare or night terror? Someone is trying to attack you and your telling your body "wake up wake up!" because it feels so real and you are afraid. I was in these dream states for not just a night but days and it was a level of torture I had never known. Because it did not feel like a dream it felt like I was living out every dreadful moment and could not escape. In one of these realities I was in a deadly game. Everyone was being hunted down to be killed and the last to survive would be the winner and allowed to live. While being hunted down my murderers and tortured it felt so real. At one point they were burning my skin with fire and I could feel my skin melting, boiling and burning I was screaming. I often wonder how I was behaving in the outside world. Was I sleeping? Was I screaming bloody murder and being sedated since I wasn't conscious during these times I will never know. When I woke up I believed strange things, like my teeth were gone and had trouble seeing my reflection. I had to get used to being in reality again.
By Julia Stellings4 years ago in Psyche
ADHD Ask: Would My Life Be Better if I Was Diagnosed as A Child?
I was not diagnosed with ADHD until I was 39. A large (and continuing) part of my coming to terms with my new diagnosis was wondering how my life might have been different if I had been diagnosed as a child. There is a feeling that the person I am today is made up of coping mechanisms. If I didn’t have to hide, learn what was appropriate, and behave the way that made people comfortable, would I have flourished?
By Kristy Westaway4 years ago in Psyche
The Hectic Thoughts of a Manic Man
Throughout my life I have had swings in my mood varying from quiet and standoffish to wild and erratic. There are times even now I imagine what life would be like for me had that mental integrity I struggled to manage would have flourished to full stability. Finding peace in the creative arts always freed my mind from the woes that often frustrated me dealing with being manic. It wasn't until my late teenage years approaching early adulthood that the mania took control of my life. The depression was in the background of my life story that was much less detrimental to my relationships whether it been friends or romantic partners since I was generally still able to articulate rational grounded thoughts.
By Tony Beyond4 years ago in Psyche
Why Codependency is a B*tch
Codependency isn't cute. It isn't just being clingy or needy or loving someone with your whole being. It's the painful need for someone else to supply you with the happiness, reassurance and comfort you need to get by. It's relinquishing the power of your independence to someone else. It's the loss of control over your own feelings. It's not a good feeling to feel like you need someone else in order to survive. It's unhealthy and it's been the bane of my existence since as long as I existed.
By Kristen Lynn Kreashko4 years ago in Psyche
Why The Narcissist Wants to Erase Your Identity
If you have been in a relationship with a narcissist you are probably familiar with that confused foggy feeling that overtakes you when you are around them for any length of time. This feeling is a symptom of systematic gaslighting and thought control tactics. I remember constantly feeling muddled and disorganized around my abuser as I was never truly safe to be myself or permitted to question his endless rambling narratives.
By Candace Ranee Moon4 years ago in Psyche
Understanding Neurodiversity: A Dyspraxic Viewpoint. Top Story - September 2021.
Introduction Hello, my name is Chloe Urquhart or some of you might know me by my pen name, Amber Forest. Today I’m going to explain what the terms neurodiverse and neurotypical mean. I have what is considered a neurodivergent condition or developmental difference called dyspraxia, otherwise known as developmental co-ordination disorder (DCD). I am going to start off with some basic definitions and facts regarding neurodiversity and neurotypical. Next I will go into the theories and validity of the terms then I will give you my perspective from a dyspraxic (DCD) viewpoint.
By Amber Forest4 years ago in Psyche
Grandiosity!
I overindulge and shovel globs of fluffy, velvety ice cream into my small, round mouth, glossed with delusions of oil and vinegar. My tongue paralyzes after the mortifying aftertaste of highly saturated fat and sugar. Every bone in my body stretches and cracks before joining together to play the failure's violin. Beads of sweat contour my forehead and burst into rivers, running down my face. The elastic skin around my eyes reaches around and pinches every corner when I can't bare to look into the bowl. These two polished fingers could be anywhere else buried under pillows but they were gouging my heart out through the tube of my sore throat, digging for bones and dead things like a rabid dog. My stomach tenses and the waves twist and melt at the sides like the mutilated top of a cone.
By Nicole Cafarelli4 years ago in Psyche
Conversion Disorder Journal (Part 1)
I have had functional neurological disorder (FND) for about three and a half years now, since April 2018. It really began to get bad after my grandma passed away in June 2018 though. Before I get too into my personal story about it, I will explain a little bit about what FND, or conversion disorder, is.
By Rene Peters4 years ago in Psyche
6 Fun Facts About Synesthesia
Have you ever said something to a friend or family member that they thought was really strange? Like maybe that a certain song sounded orange or that you could ‘see’ music? Or that the number 5 is green to you? If so, you may have Synesthesia, a neurological condition that scientists are still trying to figure out more about it and why it happens. The word means to blend the five senses. People with synesthesia (known as synesthetes), experience the world differently – to put it simply, think of it like crossed wires in their brains – their senses are hooked up to each other in weird ways where one sensory source produces another result – such as tasting sounds or hearing colours. There are many different types of synesthesia such as Chromesthesia – where a person hears a sound and sees a colour associated with it (high pitched sounds are often brighter colours and lower sounds are darker). Different people may see a certain sound as a different colour. One of the most common forms of this condition is grapheme-color synesthesia– where people will see letters or numbers with different colours. For example ‘A’ might be yellow and 12 might be a shade of blue.
By Caitlin McColl4 years ago in Psyche
